Woke up early today to go to a temple located around e Bedok area, to pray my late grandparents & their ashes. Parents took day off to attend e death anniversary. I was mystified, wondering why we couldn't celebrate their actual birthdays instead.. doesn't matter that they are not living anymore. Met relatives there too, have e monk nian jing (prayer) for them, we offer vegetarian food, flowers, rice, tea, paper money, clothes, etc. I saw paper gold watch, houses, limousine, handphone before, even a passport. I asked dad how come there are such things, so modern. Dad said so they can visit any place they want, even e north pole. Lol. Dad asked me whether we should write our home number on e paper handphone, I said sure, & add my hp number too. I would really love to hear her sweet voice again. But then others said siao la. Their echo could be heard throughout e hall. So e idea was given up. I informed them that they forgot to buy paper charger for e paper handphone. How to charge when e battery is low -_- Lol.

My beloved grandma visited me in my dreams several times ever since she passed 10 yrs ago. e 1st was on e 7th day after she died. Mum could hear me talking in hainanese in my sleep at around 3am, after she heard a soft flapping. e next day, I had sch, our maid (whom we affectionately called her aunty), saw a butterfly e size & length of like a $5 sg note. Flew to e kitchen, then to my room. I was terribly disappointed I missed that episode..

As e years passed, e dreams gradually get lesser. About twice in a yr I dreamt about her. e recent one was when I was really upset & depressed. I didn't call or tell anyone, just cry alone in my room. Felt so alone, then I picked up e picture frame of my grandma & me beside my bed, & told her I missed her very much. That night, I dreamt about her. :) We were standing next to each other, my arm around her shoulders, in a huge glass thing, transparent, & there are several others who were in twos or threes too, standing dispersedly around us. e glass thing.. it can float.. it proceeded at a slow pace, going around buildings, land. Oh my.. I was almost a head taller than her.. I was only about at her shoulder height before she passed.. & she has grown a bit skinnier (probably because only vegetarian food is allowed in e temple, so no fish head curry, etc), her hair wasn't as curly as before.. but she still has that same, warm gentle smile. We were enjoying e view & each other's company. I forgot what we had chatted, but I remembered my last words with her was I love u in hainanese. She smiled. Then I added that I love her very much, & her smile widened. hehe.

Then.. i heard my mum calling me to remember to take in e clothes when it rains -_- I woke up. haiz.. then mum left for work. I couldn't get back to sleep after that. I called mum later to complain that she disturbed my dream. Lol. Well.. I am not sure whether she has reincarnated or something already, since I haven't had any visit from her in my dreams this yr so far.